'I have mental issues, I can't always control what my brain does' - Lady Gaga reveals

 

She said: 'I wrote a song on Chromatica called 911, and it's about an anti-psychotic that I take and it's because I can't always control things that my brain does and I have to take medication to stop the process that occurs.

''I know I have mental issues and I know that they can sometimes render me non-functional as a human.'

 

How can I use my humanity to focus on something that I believe to be infinitely more important than what I've been through? Which is what the medical community has done.

'It made me think about the helpers of the world and how their mental states are and how they don't necessarily have the help that they need. 

'When this is all over whatever that means and things get better whatever that means, who will be there to support them'

 

She continued: 'I don't lack self awareness and I do understand I'm not the only human on the planet that suffers and I think I have it pretty f****** good and I'm grateful for what I have.'  

 

This is not the first time that Gaga is talking about her mental state.

Speaking in January at Oprah's 2020 Vision: Your Life In Focus Tour in Florida she revealed that she went on medication after being repeatedly raped at the age of 19, leaving her with PTSD. 

'I had a psychotic break, I'll explain what happened. Here's my brain, here's the center.
And then, I was triggered really bad in a court deposition, and this part of the brain where you stay centered and you don't dissociate, right? It went like this,' she said, before slamming her hand down.

'It slammed down.  And my whole body started tingling, I started screaming,' she said. 

 

Asked by Oprah where she was at, she replied, 'I was in the hospital.' 

"It's very difficult to describe what it feels like other than that at first, you are completely tingling from head to toe, and then you go numb, but what is essentially happening is the brain goes, 'That's enough, I don't want to think about this anymore, I don't want to feel this anymore,' boom,' she said, slamming her hand down again. 

 

She said: 'I know I have mental issues and I know that they can sometimes render me non-functional as a human'
'And literally break from reality as we know it,' Oprah added. 

'You break from reality as we know it, you have no concept of what's going on around you,' she explained. 

 

Gaga said she was evaluated by a psychiatrist, much to her initial annoyance. 

''Can you get me a real doctor?'' Gaga recalled asking.  'He was like, 'Hey, so nice to meet you.' And he sat down and I was like, 'I need medicine, I don't feel well. I can't feel... help me.' And then he just said, 'I need you to explain to me what happened today.' And I was so annoyed.

'But I'm telling you this story because even I, who run Born This Way foundation with my mother, was irritated that they brought a psychiatrist in to help me. That's how gone I was.'